not a poem

hi guys...im no longer blogging poems or anything ..i dont know how to delete this blog so im just guna leave it alone ...you can delete it from your pc or whatever...just thought i would inform u all ...to all the poets out there: never give up and follow your heart....keep writing :) ...bye

Here i am

and what you see is what you get

and what you learn about me, is what there is;

nothing more, nothing less

simple as life; live, enjoy, die.

These eyes dont tell lies;

they scream my past, present, and future.

You look deep into them, and you see right through me.

After one good look, youll know exactly who i am;

the mountains i climbed;

the bridges i burned;

the ways i walked;

and how i talked;

i dont regret anything i did because at that moment;

it mustve been something i meant.

I cant be someone, i am not.

And neither you or i cant change what was meant to be.

When i look in the mirror

i see the true lies

i thought were me

but then i realize they are the outline of my life.

I Find Myself

remembering when we hung out everyday

doing homework, having laughs, playing

soccer, riding bikes. Remember

feeling bad for those kids

we watched sit alone at lunch, planning to

join them to make them feel wanted?

Remember finding me, waiting

for you, at your locker to walk to classes

together? We'd like teasing each other

and fooling around. Now i find myself

missing you being happy because

of the lack of love you recievce and give.

When one thing started, i dropped you

and left you in the dirt to slowly die out.

I watcha you from afar, hoping

our relationship will be mended in time

and i realize the mess i made and that

theres much more beyond this door

we have to fix. I do regret leaving our

friendship and i'm sorry for leaving

you out there on your own.

Drowning

Drowning: the little girl from the past

who used to be so innocent and sweet. By

drowning the old, you resurrect a new soul..

A girl who is the opposite of that little girl..

first you stress about losing her. But then

you realize, it may not be so bad because

you found yourself and who you were meant to be.

Theres little to

no pain in leaving behind your horrid past.

Although you miss some of your old things,

you discovered new ones. You learn to

love again. Sometimes looking back on things,

you may realize how different youve become.

then your still thinking about the

paths you walked, the songs you sung,

and the leaves you crunched while stepping there.

And you think, Do i regret doing that, until you

realize, you cant live in regrets and the

"shouldve couldve wouldves"..just keep pushing along.

After realizing this, you become

relaxed into life and the fact that youve changed

from when you when young and naive to now

when youre wise and intelligent. You have been

drowned in love and wondeful memories that will never

end..

and then you die from being suffocated in love,

concern, and friendship. And you feel successful

and glad that you have changed for the better. Youre

happy that you went through life knowing that you

were always loved by people who u loved and you

learn that you only need the ones who have proved

they need you in their lives.and everything is

peaceful and in harmony again

Stressed

not knowing what to do

pacing the floors staring at the stars

looking for an answer.
It leaves me drowning in thoughts,

fears, and feelings

Wondering about life

what it means..

whats the point...

and how im supposed to make a difference.

Wanting to know how to make it better

...feeling torn up

Pressure building inside of me..

what to escape like a

scream from a childs frustration when

they dont get what they want. Having

mixed emotions.Stress building;

increasing inside of me. Wanting to

run away to a new place. Dont know

what to think, do, or say to make

it all better for everyone and me. I dont

know whether i should

cry laugh, smile, or break down.

*i wrote this poem a while ago...everythings fine now, though*