when you look at me

do you ever think of what we could be?

The sweet memories we could make,

or the thrilling breaths we could take...together...

or is it just me?

my heart melts, my head races, my hands shake;

all because you smiled at me.

Wont you just take my hand

and together we'll fly away

and make a great escape.

Put your trust in me and jump.

Take a chance and hold your breath

to fall into me.

What is this feeling

in the center of my heart

i feel like theres just a hole

and its been ripped apart.

I cry for you every night

wishing you were with me

cause we used to be so tight.

i miss you

and i dont know if you saw, but

what we had was true.

Moving on is so hard

when i know i want to wait for you

but we know its more than just a yard.

I use my 11:11 wishes on you,

my 4 leaf clovers cause im missing you,

and my shooting stars because im in love with you.

You were always there for me to catch me when i fell

you mean the world to me

you could always tell

when i was down because my heart was breaking

because everyone was always faking

about who they are or what they do

but u were always one that was true.

I wish i could go back in time and change this

because nothing can be worse than this feeling of heartbreak

how do you

keep going on, when inside, youre hurting?

You put on a fake smile and say "im great"

even though you are the furthest thing from great.

Your heart aches and your head pounds

All you want to do is to fall through the floor and disappear

You feel defeated in every way possible and dont know what to do

You feel youre slowly dying a painful death

And sometimes all you need is a wake up call and realize, youre not the only one who has it rough

Im Sorry

im not perfect

im sorry that i fell for someone who didnt catch me

im sorry for lying to myself about how i felt

because the truth is that i was totally in love with him

but thats over

im done thinking non stop about him.

im done texting him all the time when i know i wont get a response.

i thought that fairy tales were real but now i know why they're labeled "fantasy"

my knight in shining armour turned out to be like every other guy out there;

some loser in aluminum foil.

im sorry i gave up my life for him and how stupid i was.

im sorry i even thought of waiting for him because i see hes moved on

and so should i.

im sorry i even took a chance because all im left with is a broken heart

and most of all, im sorry i never learned to say "fuck you" nicely

**not about me..for my friend whos boyfriend was a jerk**

not a poem

hi guys...im no longer blogging poems or anything ..i dont know how to delete this blog so im just guna leave it alone ...you can delete it from your pc or whatever...just thought i would inform u all ...to all the poets out there: never give up and follow your heart....keep writing :) ...bye

Here i am

and what you see is what you get

and what you learn about me, is what there is;

nothing more, nothing less

simple as life; live, enjoy, die.

These eyes dont tell lies;

they scream my past, present, and future.

You look deep into them, and you see right through me.

After one good look, youll know exactly who i am;

the mountains i climbed;

the bridges i burned;

the ways i walked;

and how i talked;

i dont regret anything i did because at that moment;

it mustve been something i meant.

I cant be someone, i am not.

And neither you or i cant change what was meant to be.

When i look in the mirror

i see the true lies

i thought were me

but then i realize they are the outline of my life.

I Find Myself

remembering when we hung out everyday

doing homework, having laughs, playing

soccer, riding bikes. Remember

feeling bad for those kids

we watched sit alone at lunch, planning to

join them to make them feel wanted?

Remember finding me, waiting

for you, at your locker to walk to classes

together? We'd like teasing each other

and fooling around. Now i find myself

missing you being happy because

of the lack of love you recievce and give.

When one thing started, i dropped you

and left you in the dirt to slowly die out.

I watcha you from afar, hoping

our relationship will be mended in time

and i realize the mess i made and that

theres much more beyond this door

we have to fix. I do regret leaving our

friendship and i'm sorry for leaving

you out there on your own.

Drowning

Drowning: the little girl from the past

who used to be so innocent and sweet. By

drowning the old, you resurrect a new soul..

A girl who is the opposite of that little girl..

first you stress about losing her. But then

you realize, it may not be so bad because

you found yourself and who you were meant to be.

Theres little to

no pain in leaving behind your horrid past.

Although you miss some of your old things,

you discovered new ones. You learn to

love again. Sometimes looking back on things,

you may realize how different youve become.

then your still thinking about the

paths you walked, the songs you sung,

and the leaves you crunched while stepping there.

And you think, Do i regret doing that, until you

realize, you cant live in regrets and the

"shouldve couldve wouldves"..just keep pushing along.

After realizing this, you become

relaxed into life and the fact that youve changed

from when you when young and naive to now

when youre wise and intelligent. You have been

drowned in love and wondeful memories that will never

end..

and then you die from being suffocated in love,

concern, and friendship. And you feel successful

and glad that you have changed for the better. Youre

happy that you went through life knowing that you

were always loved by people who u loved and you

learn that you only need the ones who have proved

they need you in their lives.and everything is

peaceful and in harmony again

Stressed

not knowing what to do

pacing the floors staring at the stars

looking for an answer.
It leaves me drowning in thoughts,

fears, and feelings

Wondering about life

what it means..

whats the point...

and how im supposed to make a difference.

Wanting to know how to make it better

...feeling torn up

Pressure building inside of me..

what to escape like a

scream from a childs frustration when

they dont get what they want. Having

mixed emotions.Stress building;

increasing inside of me. Wanting to

run away to a new place. Dont know

what to think, do, or say to make

it all better for everyone and me. I dont

know whether i should

cry laugh, smile, or break down.

*i wrote this poem a while ago...everythings fine now, though*

Becoming

Acquiainted with the

Disasterous essence;

Dealing it,

Inhaling, smoking, snorting, or shooting up

Crashing; crying; and depression until

Trying it again and again..and again

Ending up hooked on it; unable to stop

Daring your chances of living

The Mistake Was

learning the lyrics to your song

& bringing you into my sanctuary,

my peace of mind; my life. I regret

ever trusting you because you stabbed me

in the back. Im done with taking this.

Its hard

believing you when even you know, youre lying

through your teeth. The mistake was

learning

your name and becoming friends. I gave you

an inch, but you took a mile. I put my

faith in you but now i realize i was

stupid for doing so. You dont care about me; i

thought we were best friends who told

each other everything but i guess it was

just a pretty little

act that i was too naive to realize.

Wanting More

and more

Getting high each time you

snort,

shoot up,

or swallow

the vicious nightmare

until you dont get the satisfactory high;

so you

snort,

shoot up,

or swallow

even more and more

to fly just that much higher.

Nonstop flying until its all gone.

Doing anything you can to experiene the nightmare.

Getting the amazing high;

feeling the fear, hopelessness, and rage

in your body from the horrible dream, the next day.

Trying it, Flying with it, Crashing on it, Wanting more of it.

It becomes a vicious cycle called addiction

Aspirations

Set them highAnd dont be shy
to dare yourself and
have pride in oneself
Never stop trying
and become allying
with your good qualities
underlying
your imagination
even though youll face frustration
In the end, it will be worth it
And you will end up with mirth
Dont stop believeing because
you will be achieving
your wildest dreams
and it seems
that its a fantasy
but its really reality

Can't Stop What Was Meant to Be

Its ...

...the brightness of lightning...

...the crash of a wave...

...the rise of the sun...

...the rush of a waterfall...

...the loss of a breathe...

...the touch of a heart...

...the fall of a rose petal...

...the boom of thunder...

that reminds me of us,

Our love is just natural

Let it Rain

Let the water fall down from the sky

And hit the sidewalk in erratic beats

Make me feel like i can fly

And make my heart do leaps

By letting your lips touch mine

and making me forget about the time

Tell me you love me, with all your heart

and never let us come apart

Let the rain come down

and just pull me close

Never ever let me frown

And let the sky compose

The stochastic music of rain drops falling

Almost like heavens calling

For us to be together, forever

Let the rain hit our faces

And hold my hand

Together, well go places

and never let go

Love me always and forever<3

Happiness

What is happiness?

is it when all your dreams come true...

when you meet the one you want to be with the rest of your life...

when you are finally satisfied with your life...

happy with the friends you have and ones you love...

when you feel that you are finally right where you belong...

or waking up each day and being excited for the new day ahead, filled with surprises

...for me...its being accepted for who i am and im happy..truly happy

Depression

Pressure...building up inside

Peers... unapproving of you

Peer Pressure... pushing you to do things you dont want to do

Tests and quizzes...getting harder and mopre difficult

High Expectations...getting higher, going into space

Family issues... becoming worse and tearing us apart

Everything else...

Turning your life into hell

Making you turn to ...

the blade...

the pills...

the violence...

the sex...

the alcohol...

Starting a new cycle of problems

**not about me**

Gifted

Sees what happens next

No matter how complex

Feels others' emotions deep within

And knows where to begin

Listens to hear what only she can hear

Even the lowest roar, no matter how sheer

Speaks with words of insight

And always being right

Tastes the kiss of death

Or the new life breath

Never Good Enough

Have you ever felt like you were done?

Just turned around and wanted to run

'Cause you dont know which way is up

And you think that you just interrupt

'Cause you need to get away

Because you feel like a stray;

Lost and homeless

Just like a mess

No matter how hard you try, youll never be enough

And in your head plays, "yeah, thats tough"

Like youre a failure and will never succeed

At anything you do and will always have needs

Do you ever feel like youll never make it?

Just because you just dont fit

And it seems theres always someone, one step ahead

Better than you, in every way; so you feel dead

Ever thought: "Thats it im through

Because ill never be as good as you?"

But who are you to complain,

theres always someone with more shame

In what they do and how they act,

Or how people look at them and react

Flying, Falling, Crashing

flying above the sky

to greater heights

with new things to try

and stars so bright

falling into the arms of one

falling for him

my heart, he has won

and my hate is dim

Crashing with felicity

Loving living in the moment

My life, perfect with simplicity

Enjoying life like a present

Friends

F riends are like diamonds, they are different and sparkle in their unique way

R egreting nothing with them and loving them forever

I wouldnt be able to live without these people

E ven though they are crazy, they mean the world to me

N o matter what, they'll be my my side

D efending each other

S acrificing time and love for each other

A friends is a person attached to another by feeling of attraction or personal reguard

R emembering stupid things that mean a lot

E ach one special like a snowflake

G oofing around with each other like little kids

O r comforting one another through thick and thin

D elightful to be around

S culpting each others lives in ways unimagineable

W arm-hearted and always sweet

A lways ready to help

Y outhful energetic people

O ne of a kind

F eeling loved with them around

"A friend in need is a friend indeed"

P retending to be superheros, saving the world

O pened up to talk for each other

L oving each other from here 'til the end of the world

O utgoing and daring

G reatful for one another

I nspiration comes from those who love you; friends

Z ero negativity with them

I mpossible to forget

N aturally sweet

G enerous

F orgiving at times

O riginal

"R eal friends walk in, when the rest of the world walks out"

F riends forever, boys whatever

A flock of birds that fly together are like friends that never leave each others side

M y friends are the greatest and i couldnt live without them

I ntelligent and hard-working students

L ucky to have them

Y our siblings for life

♥I ABSOLUTELY LOVE YOU GUYS TO DEATH♥

Run

Sometimes you just want to run

run away to another world

where the sun always shines and problems dont exist

when you run away you leave all your problems behind

but you also leave the people who love you,

the moments worth living,

and the friends that mean the world to you

so as you leave behind the old problems

you make new ones

running and running youre never safe

theres always something waiting to hurt you

either way, youll end up losing the battle

dont regret anything and just live your life

Always

ill forget you when

stars dont shine

people arent different

laughs dont exist

minds never wonder

the sun burns out

smiles turn upsdie down

the sky isnt blue

the grass isnt green

flowers never bloom

love turns into hate

thunder never booms

and rivers dont flow

thats when ill forget you and let you cease to exist in my mind

thanks for being so caring and always being there for me, J&J

Tomorrow

Tomorrow will be a brighter day

where i forget today;

dont regret anything i say;

and never fret about betrey

Tomorrow wont be filled sorrow

Only smiles to keep and borrow

Tomorrow will be a day thats new

where i will carry through with promises to you

and always be true no matter what intrudes

Tomorrow will be a better time

where my dreams will climb to become prime

when all my worries and fears will be sublime

Hopefully tomorrow will come in no time

Without You

When youre not with me
I fall to pieces
Theres an empty feeling inside of me
Having you not in my life, i feel lonely
Other than missing you, i return to my past; without you
Unadjusting to my new old life, i never imagined life without you
The time anticiapting your return is unbearable

You mean the world to me
Originally perfect
Understanding each other

The Rain

drip

drop, drip

drop, as i watch

the water fall from

the sky, it reminds me

of a sprinkler on a hot summer

day, refreshing and cool; replenishing

and blue, drip drop goes the water slapping

on the ground, tapping on the floor with lots of

sound including claps and bright streaks from up in the sky

when the commotion is over, the skies turn blue and everything

is cool; the clouds turn white and light and a belt of radiant colors appear;

From the dark and driery olden days; to colorful bright todays

Someone's There

When i feel i cant go on

theres someone there

right by my side

to push me harder

he is always there to

to light and guard me

through the paths

that have created obstacles for me

I know i'm never alone

because i feel him always with me

hes there to protect me

i put my faith and trust into him

even though i cant see him

When im frightened

that i cant move

Its he, who relieves me of my fear

He is my guardian angel, watching over me

♥dad; always in our hearts♥

A Friend

A friend

A friend is someone whos always there for you

loving, caring, nice and true

they go through thick and thin

just to help you

You put your trust into them

Each one is like a gem

and if you lose one

its like losing a fortune

because they become a part of you

so its a portion that youre loing

Always keep your friends close

because it takes a long time to grow old friends

*this is for all of my amazing friends who have been there for me, so thanks*

Passing Time

Tick Tock goes the clock

as time moves on so do we

as we grow and change

we turn into new people

like blossoming flowers

we start small and weak

and closed and alike

but when time passes

we become clever and strong

and open and different

our owns traits shine through

people change and change

but dont ever forget who you really are

and what friends are true

This feeling

**I wrote this piece months ago**

meeting you was faith

becoming your friend was a choice i had to make

but falling in love with you i had no control over

without you i would fall to pieces

when i see you

I feel like theres a reason to live

Its because of you that i wake up everyday

and wanna keep going on

you just make me feel like i can fly

how do you do that

is it your smile

or your bubbly personality?

whatever it is, dont stop

they day you leave my life is the day i watch my heart

shatter on the floor

Slow Down

dont rush through life
theres no reason to

if you take it slow

youll know just what to do

pay attention to

life all around you

if you go slow enough

youll see everything is unique

take your time

walk down the street

and youll notice...

people's paces

birds faces

flowers blooming

airplanes zooming

or even a butterfly's erratic flight

through the patterned starry night

so stop and look around you

'cause you may notice things you've never seen before

This Life

This life i have
is just a stage

This life i have

is like a book

Each day is a page

that needs to be turned

Start each one as a new

each page is different

out-of-the-ordinary things occur

As you turn and turn

you never know whats going to happen

always expecting some special

Twists and turns

Lessons learned

This life i have has just turned

Whenever We're Together

I wrote this song a really long time ago but i thought i would just put it up

Whenever you look at me
You make all my problems disappear
everythings okay now that we're together again

you make me feel so special

me and you together

we crash and collide 'til we're in harmony

wheneve i see you

you make me feel like im on cloud nine

you give me the wings to soar above the sky

with you i feel amazing

whenever we touch theres a special kind of spark between us

your smile makes me wana melt right there
whenever i see your face

i find my composure

my heart beats faster and faster whenever im near you

whwnever we're together we'll make it last forever

together we're unstoppable

i wanna be with you forever and ever

we can do anything we want

if we just believe we can

whenever we're together

Me

Gotta be who i am

no more hiding the truth

im gunna show you who i was meant to be

today is my day

no more getting bossed around

no more following the crowd

no more blending in with everyone around me

im gunna follow my own beat

im sick of the same status quo

im a different person now

im breaking free and flying away

so now i'll prove who i am

i'll stand alone from the crowd

show my independence from all of you

I'll never be mistaken for anyone else

Life

Just live

live in the moments that take your breath away

always smile

smile like you're taking a picture

just laugh

laugh like theres no tomorrow

always love

love like you've never been hurt

dance

dance like nobodys watching you

walk to edge and always push yourself

never stop believing

follow your heart and be different